santa came early this yr

so we have alomst reached half a yr in our relationship and things could not be going any better. winter break is almost here so i get to have him all to myslef for a whole month!!! a holiday i have someone to cuddle with and not wish for having a bf. if you would have told me last yr by this time this yr i would be in love with the man of my dreams i would not have believed you. today we were talking and i was like santa gave me my gift 6mos early i've been on cloud nine since we have been together we have our ups and downs but what relationships doesent. I love him soo much he the bestest he make me smile :) i cant wait for saturday when we can hug and kiss for the 1st time in a month. i dont know how we get through this long distance relationship. thats how i know its love cuz i wait too see him every month and its all worth it the being away cuz when were together were just so happy!!!! he calls me Mrs. Stocks thats so cute Shani Aja Stocks i cant wait for the day. i love him!!!! i dont if i can say that enough!!! i love him!!!

he's the bestest!

so my bam bam is the best bf ever he makes me really happy. he was down in SA last weekend and it was the best for days ever!!! even though work and school and some friends got in the way of our alone time i'm so glad he came down. ever since he left i wished he was here again. so we can snuggle and talk. my bed feels empty without him in it. but he will be back soon for a whole week in decemeber. he did the cutest thing the other day. i told him i would watch animal house and then txted me later that day asking me if he could take me get dinner and ice cream the day we watch the movie. but i love him he's my babe. and i want to spend my life with him cuz i love him so much!!!!

I LOVE YOU

so it has been a week since my vist to Knoxville and i want to go back. i missed collin alot and that trip proved it. i had alot of fun that weekend just kissing, holding hands and cuddling. i met some of his friends. we celebrated our 3mos anniversary. that day was so special for me. we went to the mall and a baseball game but the best part of that day was the Hill. he told me I love you for the very firsrt time. i felt so special at that moment. no one has ever said those words to me and he said them. he is the guy in my dreams that i've always dreamed about. he makes me so happy. i hope i'm the girl that he has always dreamed about. well back to the weekend the next day was 21st and we just went and walked around downtown and then had dinner that night. the next morining was hard at the airport. i didnt expect to cry cuz i didnt cry when we left for school. but they came out of know where. he shed some tears too. we truely love each other. i'm so happy were togehter!!!

a tough week and the L word

so its almost time for our 3mos anniversary september 29th. i cant wait cuz i will be there to celebrate with him :) he make me so happy. this week he was worried about me cuz i had a rough day it just wasnt going my way and he was there every step of the way doing what he could to make me happy. next week is going to be hard for us. we get in alot of talk time be cuz of test and work for me. hopefully we can talk a little bit cuz a day without talking to him i dont know what i would do go crazy maybe. we also started talking about the L word u know which one i mean LOVE thats right love. we not sure if were ready or if one is ready more than the other. we just want to make sure we make the right decsion. he might say it when i go to tn for his b-day/anniversay weekend. i never thought i could say those words to anyone as quicky as 3mos i always saw myself saying after being togehter for like 7mos and that was with anybody i ended up with. but with collin it difffent he just make me feel special and important and like i matter. i do the same for him too and we get each other were different but we have stuff in common. we just make each other really happy. as of right now i feel like i've found the one!!! hopefully he feels the same


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2 mos here we come!!!

so me and collin are going to make 2mos on the 29th and things could not be better. there was that one week in the begining of august when it was a little rocky but we got through it. our good bye was hard but we handle it like troppers no tears from me i didnt want him to see me cry so i held in all i wanted to do was kiss him before he left. and that bascially what we did. now were both back at school and talking everyday for like 5hrs but its cool i could talk to him for longer even if were not saying anything important. september 28th i'm going to tn to celebrate his b-day/3mos anniversary and i cant wait to him will be so great. were going to see each other one weekend a month this semester so that good. i'm just so happy to have him in my life to call him when i'm having a bad day. i dont know where i would be without him. he is my prince the one i wished for when i was single girl and with that idot who thoguht he was teaching me life lesson but there is no more him. it bam n bunny for life!!!

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i actually make him happy :)

so its going on four weeks with collin and i've been really really happy with out relationship. the fact that he likes me for me and i can always be myself around him. he's making me a better person and he doesnt even know it. its going to be really hard to say good bye to him in august :( i proably cry cuz i wont want to let him go. but i cant tell him to stay in texas be cuz of me he loves going to school in knoxville and i love going to school in san antonio so were going to the long distance thing. i think it will work. today i told him i was coming to see him for sure in september for his b-day and he got so excited he hugged me for 30 min!!! it felt so good to just see him be happy by me coming to visit him. i hope it works out with i care for him soooooooooooooo much its crazy like i could hang with all day and not good bored. i dont even want to leave his house at night i like hangin with him so much. even though his not big on speaking his emotions i know he feels the same! well thats about it.

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brown eyes

i think i found him

well the summer has been going great! i havent lost any weight but i still have hope. summer camp is running smoothly i'm at the best site out of the 3 so thats pretty good. and now i have a bf! he is so awesome he likes me for who i am and never judges me like my ex. i think i could love him its only been two weeks but i feel like we could be together for a while. i just really really like him but thats about. gotta go


buh bye
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traning sux!

so yeah i work will kids. it like the best job ever you get paid to play games and go field trips. but the only bad thing is you have to go trough a training and well bascially not important if your going through it for the second time. i feel sorry for the people go through it for like the 5th time. but what can you do. i just want this summer to be fun.


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i'm not big on giving up

so yeah i was never too big on giving up. when things got tough i figured out some way to do it. i mean some people think i cant really do to much but its just that i never get my chance to prove myself being so shy and soft spoken. but in school i never just said i'm not going to finish even when things got bad i always say the next semester is going to be better. so why when it comes to weight i cant get it right? i mean i was skinny and then i just started eating all the time and now i'm not so skinny. but i'm trying to change my ways this summer i want to lose at least 30 pounds 20 at the most i hate having a gut its not cute especially with the way i'm bulit. so why cant i seem to stick with this diet. i mean i really want this i want to be lighter. i'm going to prove to myself and everyone around me i can do it and i will do it by august i'm going to be a new me.


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